When I did ministry and mission trips, it involved cute hopeless children that clinged to my love and words. There was huge groups of young adults my age amped up to spread the love of Christ. It was exhilarating. I thought God totally had all of this for my future. Well, instead Beau and I are raising four boys, 7 years old, 10 years old, 12 years old, and 14 years old. They are not always cute, they rarely ever cling to my love and words. There is NO ONE my age amped up with me! This ministry is not glamorous it’s not that fun and it is beyond exhausting. I scroll through my pictures doing the ministry that made me smile constantly and made me feel alive and pumped up and sometimes I’m filled with jealousy of that old life. I could share my faith with kids and then spend the evenings goofing off with a fun team. Everything was so fleeting so I never got tired of the kids or people since something new always was happening.
I share this because this is what I learned… being a mom… a parent is the hardest ministry God has ever given anyone. Orchestrating a orphanage in Africa honestly may be a lot more pleasant than raising children.
If you struggle with feeling like you want more from life than raising kids and making a home, I truly believe you are doing the most challenging hardest work and it is an honor that God believes and knows you can handle it. We don’t have the funnest ministry, it leaves us fatigue, cranky, sore, and mentally exhausted. We get doors slammed in our face, and hours of lecturing before the tiniest breakthrough happens. We don’t get hugs and kisses because we gave a gift to a child, read a bible story or gave a meal, instead we get ungratefulness that needs correction. We aren’t really admired all the time either.
You are so incredibly strong for raising your children, you are doing far more important work than you think. Parenting is so cheapened by t.v and what it portrays to be. It is hours and hours of monitoring, lecturing, punishing, encouraging, loving, teaching, and understanding. It never ends. I’m certain if you accept that God has this for you as your ministry, if you pour yourself into it instead of resenting it God will bless you with peace that this is all for a greater calling. You are raising the next generation, you are in control of the positivity they are going to have on the world. That is huge. You may never get your gratitude from your kids until they are older and wiser, so don’t put your security in that. God is so proud of you and so thankful of you for raising his children with all the love and wisdom you have. Your work, your ministry is glorious, never cheapen it as being anything less.
The last thing I’ll say is, do not surround yourself with people who cant see the importance of what you are doing. You need relationships that understand your hard work and will encourage you and strengthen you to keep going.